Last unmedicated try

After 11 months of giving it a go on our own, today its time to realize we're not going to be one of the lucky ones with that surprise pregnancy the 2nd go-round.  Today my heart committed to the fact that this is our reality.  And my brain realized that my heart needs me to write it all down.  So today I start.  Day by day.  Step by step.  Detailing our reality.  All the "fun" that procreating is in an infertility riddled home.

3/12/2013
Today I am 8 or 9 DPO (days post ovulation) today, not 100% sure which. Maybe even just 7 honestly. Because I have not been temping, I'm not totally sure. I'm going with 8, based on my +OPK late one evening & well, just my intuition.

Up to 2x a day Metformin. I started taking it on 2/28, after seeing my OB. Started with 1x a day, because its well known to cause some serious GI side effects on people. It didn't bother me last time & this time has been no issue either. I guess thats a blessing. Actually last time I lost 15 pounds taking it, despite all the other hormones. I guess if I can't get pregnant, maybe I could at least loose 15 pounds? I just so happened to ovulate about 2-3 days earlier than my usual this cycle. (After a long messed up last cycle). Maybe the metformin helped already to bump my O date up? Anytime something out of the norm happens, like Jeff's car breaks down, we move, the kids are sick, etc. my PCOS body can't handle continuing to ovulate normally. It bumps me back usually 10 days; sometimes more, sometimes less. So the later & later I ovulate, assumingly, the worse & worse my already questionable quality eggs (given my PCOS) are. So if Metformin can bump my ovulation up even a couple days, thats a positive. And I'm on progesterone. The only other time I took it was the cycle I got pregnant. So I'm not real sure what side effects are per say. Then it was vaginal suppositories with the RE. My OB wrote to take it orally, so I am. And I'm not digging it. I am crabby. I am tired. I have a dull headache. I'm kind of crampy. Kind of gassy. I'm just blah. Maybe its the weather. Maybe its just this whole TTC business. Maybe its the progesterone. Maybe its the met? Maybe I will get a + it a few days & chalk it all up to pregnancy. That would be ideal. But regardless, I'm not feeling myself.

Trying to decide when to test. If I am 8 DPO, I should wait about 7 more days. Last time I got a little line at 9 DPO, but that was hormone levels x3. Since I am on progesterone I can't just wait to see if I'm "late." Because the progesterone won't allow me to cycle. I have to test, & if its negative, stop taking the progesterone & wait for my period to come. Not even sure I have a pregnancy test at home. Much different that last time, when I had dozens just laying around waiting to be peed on. I have to stop & get milk for the kids on my way home, maybe I'll pick some up?

3/14/13
10 DPO Tested just because I bought a stash of $.88 Walmart tests.  Negative. Knew it would be. 4 more days until my real test day.

3/18/13
14 DPO.  Negative.  Now I'll stop taking progesterone & wait for my period to come.  Then we'll start meds.  I'm bummed.  I really thought with these regular cycles we'd be able to do this on our own.  But there really isn't anything else non-invasive we can do.  I'm feeling pretty defeated.

3/20/13
This last heave hoe came to an end today.   Called the doctor.  Picked up a prescription for Femara.... and away we go....